I have to get a job. I'm really fighting this though. I don't want a job. I want people to pay me to make things for them or buy fabric from me. Unfortunately that's not happening with enough regularity for our budget. It sucks.
Last week I got a job. I've been looking for a while and the timing and money were EXACTLY what we needed. It was an answer to tons of prayers. I was so excited for this new phase in our life. You know, the phase where we can pay all our bills all by ourselves without selling something.
I was hired to watch 2 children, a 4 year old and 7 year old. The schedule is perfect. I can still watch my sweet 1 year old that I love!
Today was to be my first day. I got an email Sunday night that she found a friend, closer to her home, that was willing to watch them.
Wait, what??
Frustrated doesn't even begin to describe what I'm feeling. I really thought this was the answer. That our situation was going to improve dramatically.
Now I feel lost and confused. And a little destroyed. I know I shouldn't but, it's hard to change how you feel sometimes. Hopefully by writing this I can excise some of that pain.
